What is our identity? How do we learn what our identity is? Can it change depending on the situation we are in or is it always the same? These are the questions I am asking you however I am not looking for the answer. No one can tell me who I am, and you can not tell anyone who you are. Be you. And if the world tries to change you or if society disagrees then lift your chin high and tell them where to go. You are perfect. We have our flaws, we make mistakes, we will never please everyone, but as long as you please yourself, and you are happy with yourself then that is the only thing that matters. Life can be rough, whether you’re black, white, gay, straight, religious, trans, ginger, or a mixture, we all face problems so do not single people out for their differences, love them for your similarities. And I can promise you, you will have more in common with that stranger you just walked past than you will know.
Anyway, I got a little bit side tracked. Basically I am at a loss with who I am. I have lost my identity completely, I don’t even know how I want to dress anymore. I have lived a lie for so long about who I am and I finally stopped and thought I had gotten over a huge hurdle and now I feel like I didn’t get over it instead I crashed and burned very dramatically. I need somewhere to turn to help me back up but I know I am the only person who can help me so I just need to get it together really. I feel like I take 1 step forwards and then 10 steps backwards.
I am pretty sure I am a male trapped in a woman’s body, but I still question it every 5 minutes because once I have come out and I change that’s it for life that is who I am going to be. It is like getting a tattoo its permanent so how do I know for certain that is who I am. I am not good at big decisions.